Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Brain dump

I have a few partially written posts in my drafts folder but right now my head feels like it's in the clouds right now and at this rate I'm never going to get them finished and published.  So I'll resort to bullet points.

Here's a bit about what's going on in my life:

  • I'm slowly adjusting to the idea that my sister is pregnant.  I'm happy for her, I really am, but a little bit of the sadness for me lingers.
  • My sister that had a baby in February called me this morning and asked me if I wanted to split the cost of a baby gift for pregnant sister.  This caught me off guard because SHE'S NOT DUE UNTIL FEBRUARY.  I refuse to even start to think about a gift until after Christmas.
  • All of my sisters are terrible drivers.  As such I always purchase a car seat for each of my nieces and nephews.  I spend hours researching safety features, product reviews, etc. and buy them the best.  My two sisters that already have kids just accepted this for what it is, have let me do my thing, and graciously accepted their car seats.  According to the sister I talked to this morning (sorry if all of my sisters are confusing) she wants a specific car seat in a specific fabric.  I feel a little bit like she's taken my job from me.  Of course I recognize that it's her right to pick out whatever she wants for her baby so I suppose this will have to be one of those times where I shove my feelings aside, put my big girl pants on, and just deal with it.
  • Hot flashes are kicking my ass.  They (thankfully) gave me a bit of a reprieve in August and early September, but they are back with a vengeance.  I don't even know how some women deal with these for years....I spent 10 minutes sobbing in the grocery store parking lot because I was so hot I couldn't deal.
  • I'm tired.  I'm not sleeping again.  And just when I finally get to sleep the night sweats start.  And that was before hubs decided to put the flannel sheets on the bed.
  • I feel like I'm walking around with my head in the clouds.  I feel like I'm so forgetful and I can't focus on anything.  Probably the sleep.  But I don't like feeling like this.


  1. There's a lot of things that you have to deal with lately.
    Hot flashes & Not sleeping seem to be the hardest.
    Wishing you all the best.

  2. I'm sorry to hear you have not been sleeping well lately. It sounds like you have a lot on your mind too which isn't helping. It can be hard to turn your brain off when it's bedtime. But hot flushes are a pain. My MIL gets them all the time and I get them too actually when I am on some of the ivf meds and it really isn't pleasant. Sometimes, what I do to try and combat that is to soak a face washer in cold water and put it on my forehead or on a place that's particularly hot (I usually get this just above my stomach area) and I find that helps a bit. Especially at night when I'm trying to sleep.

    I hope you can get some sleep time soon. Not sleeping does make you feel a bit out of it.

  3. Say "NO!"to flannel sheets. My mother put them on the bed I slept in last weekend, and I coped, but only because I'm on HRT. Cool crisp sheets and a damp cloth under my face on the pillow helped. I know how horrible the flushes can be - they are so hot they burn - and they're worse if you are not sleeping. Sending virtual hugs - the coolest kind.

    1. Cool hugs are appreciated! Hubs actually bought a new set of flannel sheets (because they have dogs on them) and insisted on putting them on the bed immediately because they were cute (they are). I also prefer cool, crisp sheets! Over the weekend I bought one of those memory foam pillows with a cooling gel pad and ventilated or something. It seems to be helping a bit, but it's probably the placebo effect.

      I'm just thankful that not all of the hot flashes result in reducing me into a sobbing mess.