I haven't been writing much because there really hasn't been a lot to write about. I'm doing really well at the moment. I'm not thinking much about infertility. The grief is in the background but it doesn't feel like a kick in the stomach. I'm mostly content with my life right now. I don't know if this feeling will last another hour, day, month, or what, but I'm going to enjoy it while it while it lasts. At some point I know the grief monster will come back and kick me in the stomach again.
I fell off of the exercise wagon. I was doing really well until about four weeks ago and then a combination of life, work, and getting sick all hit at the same time and working out got pushed to the very bottom of the to do list. Thankfully my eating is in check so I haven't gained weight, but I do want go get back to a regular exercise routine. I hope that by writing about this it will be enough motivation to get my butt back to the gym!
Someone close to me recently had a breast cancer scare. There was a biopsy done and it turned out that the lumps were not malignant, but it was scary because there was about a 10 day stretch where we just didn't know. During the biopsy all suspicious tissue was removed so it shouldn't be an issue in the future but she will continue to be monitored.
As someone who has found lumps in my breasts (one at 25 and the other at 26), I know first hand how scary it is to find something that's not supposed to be there. My lumps were just cysts and eventually went away on their own, but it's a disconcerting feeling when you find something that isn't supposed to be there. As a result I've always been extremely diligent with monthly self exams.
So I guess that's my round about way of urging all of you to do a monthly self breast exam and to go to your doctor if you find something outside of the norm. If you're not sure how to do one, this is a great guide.