Having kids didn't work out for us.....working on plan B.
Friday, November 7, 2014
Sometimes life sucks
I have three sisters. I knew one was pregnant, I found out today that the second is pregnant, and suspect that the third is pregnant as well. I want to move to the moon.
Thank you! Today is a little better. I'll get through it just like I always do. It's not like I have a better choice.
I feel jealous, bitter, and angry and I hate that I feel that way. Even though I know these are completely normal and natural feelings, they just feel wrong. It's unfair. Just when I think I'm doing alright something completely blindsides me.
Oh no, that really is tough. Don't beat yourself up for your feelings. This is a lot to deal with. Anyone would feel this way, and anyone would hate feeling this way. We're here for you.
Thanks, Mali! With each day that passes it hurts a little less. I'm trying to see it from her perspective (I think I got this trick from you), I know she must be scared, she'll have three kids under five when this baby is born, hasn't had a job in I don't even know how long, and currently lives in our parent's basement, so it's not like this is happy news in her and her husband's life. So it's really hard for me and surprisingly even harder for Hubs, but it's not like it's glitter and unicorns for my sister and her husband either, and I'm trying to remember that.
Ugh. I don't blame you. :( I don't know why these things always seem to happen all at once, but they do. Sending (((hugs))).
ReplyDeleteThank you! Today is a little better. I'll get through it just like I always do. It's not like I have a better choice.
DeleteI feel jealous, bitter, and angry and I hate that I feel that way. Even though I know these are completely normal and natural feelings, they just feel wrong. It's unfair. Just when I think I'm doing alright something completely blindsides me.
Oh no, that really is tough. Don't beat yourself up for your feelings. This is a lot to deal with. Anyone would feel this way, and anyone would hate feeling this way. We're here for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Mali! With each day that passes it hurts a little less. I'm trying to see it from her perspective (I think I got this trick from you), I know she must be scared, she'll have three kids under five when this baby is born, hasn't had a job in I don't even know how long, and currently lives in our parent's basement, so it's not like this is happy news in her and her husband's life. So it's really hard for me and surprisingly even harder for Hubs, but it's not like it's glitter and unicorns for my sister and her husband either, and I'm trying to remember that.
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