Just over a year ago I got an IUD. It wasn't an easy decision, and there were a few points where I wondered if I made the right decision to get it, but one year later I'm glad that I did. As I wrote about a year ago my reason for getting it was twofold. First, I was having scary heavy/bad periods, and second, I knew that having a small sliver of hope of getting pregnant was roadblock on my path to healing. I thought I'd write this post to give a little update on the IUD since I feel like having it for one year is long enough to provide a fair review.
My periods are still pretty regular. They are significantly lighter and I no longer pass large clots. They don't scare me anymore and I've finally gained the confidence to not sit on towels and I no longer carry a change of clothes with me wherever I go when on my period. I also don't feel like I'm quite as prone to mood swings. It's not all rainbows and unicorns though. My periods are still 10-12 days long, just like they were before the IUD. There's not a ton of improvement in my cramps and I still have a lot of random spotting. One particularly unpleasant thing is that I almost always cramp after sex, and this never happened before I got it. It's not bad. I'm not doubled over or anything, it's just really annoying.
I'm not going to lie, I really hoped that my periods would go away altogether, but apparently I'm going to be one of a small percentage of women who still has a period with the IUD. Lucky me. I'd also hoped that my hot flashes would improve. No such luck there either.
On a more positive front, with the sliver of hope of getting pregnant eliminated, I really, truly began to heal. I knew a year before I got the IUD that we'd never have children, but I the mind is a tricky thing and you can't suddenly go from being aware from every single thing that your body does to not paying attention to any of it. The IUD allowed me to put that possibility completely out of my mind, and every single area of my life has improved since. My relationship with hubs has improved because timing isn't in the back of my mind. I'm starting to regain my confidence, so much of which I lost during infertility. I'm starting to think of the future in the context of what we have as opposed to what we'll never have. Dare I say, I'm even happy most of the time. I'm not the person that I was a year ago when I got the IUD, and that's a really good thing!
I don't love it. I don't hate it. The good parts make the not so good parts bearable. Getting it wasn't the an easy decision, but one year later I can honestly say it was the best decision for me, and I'm glad that I did it.