So my choices are:
- Suck it up and go to the baby shower and then attend the party the next day.
- Skip the baby shower, go to the party, and look like an ass.
- Skip both, look like an ass, and take care of myself.
- Pray for a snow storm over the weekend that will make travel impossible and give me a convenient excuse to skip both.
I won't lie, I do feel bad. I feel like I'm letting people down. I feel like I'm missing out on important things in their lives. And all of that may be true. But it's what I need to do to take care of myself. I know I could handle the birthday party but the baby shower would set me up for failure. I can't go to one and not the other, so I will go to neither. The thing that's making me feel a little bit better at the moment is that there will probably be so many people at both events that my absence won't be missed. But it still sucks.