Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Maybe someday I'll figure it all out

I'm having a bit of a crisis.  It's ridiculous.  Really ridiculous.  I hesitate to say it's a midlife crisis (since I hope to live longer than 70), but that's sort of what it feels like.  I'm turning 35 this year.  35 is the age where I thought I'd have all of my shit figured out.  Yet I don't have my shit figured out, not even close, and I'm feeling the itch to do something different and impulsive, but I don't know what.  The thing is, I'm genuinely happy with my life right now, so I don't even know what's gotten into me.  Tell me that I'm not the only one who gets like this sometimes. 

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  1. I recently relocated my whole family from the West Coast to the East Coast in an attempt to shift my career focus. Definitely not alone.

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    1. This makes me feel better. Best of luck to you in your new pursuits! We moved to our current city just shy of four years ago because I accepted a new job (which I love, but it's not a forever job, so there will likely be another big move, preferably to a warmer climate, in our medium term future).

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  2. That's how I have felt since going back to school. 33 is too old to start over like that! At the rate I'm going, I'll be 37 before I finish. But I've already started to see payoff's at work because they have already promoted me.
    I always radically change my hair style when I feel like this, but I think you mentioned you did that recently. May explore some new hobbies. Good luck!

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    1. You aren't too old to start over! If it means anything, my husband started a new job/career that wasn't even slightly related to anything he's ever done before on his 38th birthday. I'm so glad to hear that your continuing education has already paid off though!

      I'm struggling with hobbies. For the entirety of my adult life I've either been in school and lacked the time for hobbies, too broke for hobbies, or both.

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  3. Idea for doing something different and impulsive: buy an airplane ticket for Slovenia :)

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    1. This is an excellent idea and one I'd love to take you up on! Sometime soon, hopefully! :)

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    2. Australia and New Zealand would be fab too, though I would want to go both of these places when I have 3-4 weeks saved up to visit, because otherwise it isn't worth it because of the time difference. :)

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  4. I am (eeeekkk!) 20 (!!) years older than you are. And I'm sorry to tell you, but I still haven't got it figured out either. But you know what? I HAVE figured out that that's OK. ;)

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    1. This really makes me feel better! I suspect that in 20 years I still won't have it figured out, because that's just who I am as a person. Glad to know someone a bit more mature than I am ;) doesn't have it figured out either, and that it's ok!

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  5. I love Loribeth's comment. That's exactly what I was going to say. Not having figured it out yet, but realising that I probably will feel the same way when I'm in my 70s! So I have to be okay with it.

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    1. Next up, working on being comfortable in my own skin. I don't think I've ever had things figured out and it's unlikely that I ever will.

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  6. Another oldie here with her two cents worth.... I’m still trying to figure it out too. It seems to be an internal clock that every few years goes off and reminds me that maybe it’s time to re-assess, re-evaluate, take stock.
    In the past that may have included a house move or a big trip or a job change/redundancy or maybe something simple like de-cluttering the house.
    It doesn’t throw anymore me like it used to, I see it as a gentle reminder to check in with myself.

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    1. It's so reassuring that I'm not the only one! I like the idea that it's an opportunity to check in with yourself.

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  7. I am turning 33 in 3 weeks.I've also been feeling like I want to move or change jobs or something.But since I am quite happy with life at the moment,I think I'm going to get my 1st tattoo this year.

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    1. Happy birthday (a few weeks early)! I love the idea of a tattoo, but every time I think of getting one, I don't know what I want on myself for the rest of my life. UGH.

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  8. You are definitely not the only person who gets like this sometimes. I think it happens whenever I'm reminded that I get this one chance at life and I don't want to use it poorly.

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    1. Exactly! I don't want to screw it up! :)

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  9. I clearly remember 35 standing out as the toughest birthday. Not sure why But you know what? Every year since has been MUCH easier. 50 was particularly excellent! You have much to look forward to...

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    1. Hopefully it will get better from here for me too!

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  10. 35 was when the baby panic really kicked in. My biological clock started pounding away and hasn't stopped since. Most of my friends were happily ensconced in their infants/toddlers and I felt like I was just trying to catch up. Long story short, I get it.

    It is great to hear you say ou are genuinely happy with your life right now. Do you know how incredible that statement alone is? It means that whatever itch you are feeling should be examined and perhaps acted upon, but that you're starting from an awesome place. Sounds like 35 has been good to you so far. And I do believe every year brings just a little bit more of the clarity that is the nectar of life. It is worth looking forward to.

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    1. I think that being so content with my life right now is why I'm so bothered by this crisis of sorts. It's weird. Now I just need figure out what my itch is and how to scratch it. :)

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  11. Dear Kinsey,

    I turn 44 on Friday and by my best estimation, I'm still a moron.

    There now. Don't you feel better??

    Love, Sarah

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    1. LOL! I do! At least a little bit. Maybe someday we'll both get our shit figured out.

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  12. I was diagnosed with poor ovarian reserve and very bad prognosis of having a baby with my own eggs. I was even given the option to consider donor eggs. That was around july 2014. I was absolutely devastated with the news and I arranged an IVF for November 2014 and it failed also, given that I had nothing to lose, I contacted Dr.Agbazara i meet online and he send me his herbal product,. Believe it or not... I am already pregnant within few after his help. contact him today with any kind of problem and be happy like me on ( agbazara@gmail.com )

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