With as much as I don't want to admit it, I've been struggling a bit. As it turns out, my grandpa's death combined with the birthdays of three nieces and a nephew in a 3.5 week period is a lot to handle. Or at least it was for me this year. The anniversary of finding out we'd never have children (March 7th) stung a lot too. Oh, and I had a random crying episode in a store today for the first time in a long time.
I try really hard to keep my shit together. Or at least to appear like I have my shit together. But right now I'm struggling. I had been doing so well. Right now I feel like I'm right back to where I was a year ago.
This is grief. It's not pretty. It's not always logical. It always sucks. But I always get through it.