tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6102758362320348657.post5629047901494880550..comments2023-04-26T10:48:38.547-04:00Comments on Bent Not Broken: Being BraveBentNotBrokenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10151724076659555122noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6102758362320348657.post-3391430293159609232014-09-30T09:23:07.937-04:002014-09-30T09:23:07.937-04:00Infertility, and going through treatments, does de...Infertility, and going through treatments, does destroy self-confidence. I was a happy person who enjoyed life and felt young and strong and able to tackle anything the life threw my way. I did feel perfect :) and enjoyed every step I took on this Earth until the moment I hit the brick wall of infertility. <br /><br />The very first appointment with an RE made me feel old overnight, old and broken and stupid for not coming to the doctors earlier and now maybe it was too late. All my achievements were nothing in comparison with those of a women who only achievement could have been having a child (or two). Every year of treatment made me feel more worthless as the baby was the only meaning of life and I couldn't have one. Now, after the treatments are over I am gaining my confidence back and I can't believe I let myself to be mentally downgraded to such desperation. <br /><br />As to being brave, I don't care if I am or am not. My main goal right now is to enjoy life again, and I don't think it includes educating my surroundings on the topics of infertility right now. Many cancer patients wear wigs when they lose their hair during chemo and I don't think of them as not being brave brave because they don't want every single person around them know they are going through chemo; they just want to live their life and focus on the next step. PerAsperahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18384612134241953499noreply@blogger.com