Hello and welcome to my blog! Despite being pretty technologically forward thinking, this is my first blog. I guess that the purpose of this blog is to be able to say the things that I can't (or won't say) to people that I know in real life. It will probably be filled with a good deal of sarcasm and some profanity too. If you can handle those things, please read on!
So this blog is going to be about infertility. Or, more specifically, healing from the scars that infertility has carved into my heart. My blog title comes from a Pink song (Just Give Me a Reason), which actually has nothing to do with infertility, but the words really spoke to me because for a long time I've felt broken, but the reality is that I'm just bent. (And still Fuckin' Perfect, according to another Pink song)
Even amongst infertility people, I don't really fit in. We're not pursing treatment and we're not really trying anymore either. My husband and I decided that we wanted to start our family two years ago, which doesn't seem like that long, but this past winter we went through infertility testing and I received a diagnosis of Diminished Ovarian Reserve (missed a POF diagnosis by thismuch), a partially blocked tube, and probable endometriosis, so suffice to say that our chances of naturally conceiving are roughly equivalent to being struck by lightening. We've also elected not to pursue any fertility treatments. A number of factors played into this decision, and I'll probably get into some of that at some point on this blog, but I am confident in our decision not to pursue treatment and so is my husband. So where does this leave us now? I guess you could say that we are still trying (in the loosest possible sense of the word); we're having regular, unprotected sex, but I'm not temping, charting, peeing on things, seeking treatment, etc. We'll be thrilled if it happens but understand that it's not likely to. I'm also working on coming to terms with a child free life, which is probably going to be the biggest part of this blog.
If you've read along this far, please leave a comment. I've silently followed a few living child free after infertility blogs, but now that I have my own blog I'll start un-silently following.